you gotta go there to come back.

Friday, February 29, 2008 @ 1:14 PM

marie digby is absolute love.
i lalalalalooooove her new song - stupid for you.

download it!!! and make use of your bummed lives. it's really nice. :)

It's not everyday
That I find a person quite like you
Perfect every way
I finally found the nerve to confess that it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
Put aside, all my pride
So don't keep me hanging here
Cause this girl is falling stupid for you...
Oh, oh stupid for you...

The proper thing to do
Is for me to act like a lady and wait
For you to make the first move

But I don't think you're getting the point
That it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
Put aside, all my pride
So don't keep me hanging here
Cause this girl is falling stupid for you
Oh, oh stupid for you

Why's it always feel like I am
Chasing love when nothing's there
And here I go just making the same mistakes...

I've fallen stupid for you...
Oh, oh stupid for you...
Oh, oh, oh, oh

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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the first cut is the deepest.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008 @ 7:43 PM

things have been such a drag lately.
school's still shitty,
and creativity hit me once again, so here goes another one of my blabbers.

in this life, people come and go, whether we like it or not. and sadly, people around us can pull us so much down, though we know they don't intend to (or perhaps they actually do).

so, we simply look at old photographs and remember the good times we had. we preserve those memories, so that when we cross paths and look into the those people's eyes, we won't simply remember all the shitty days they put us through. we'd remember the smiles and laughs they've given us.

coz that's what life is about.

and what's up with people leaving anyway? especially with those of lame excuses.

we don't simply leave people behind because of their faults and flaws. we don't simply leave people behind because they can't return what we can give them. we don't simply leave people behind because we've found new ones - no matter how you think their better.

but instead, we stand by them and love them for who they are. we appreciate them. we GROW with them. because believe it or not, that's what they're doing for YOU.

but people can be insensitive, selfish, and conceited.

so, without us even noticing it, hello would suddenly feel like goodbye. and sometimes, we think, we might as well have been strangers to begin with.

being lonely is not the worst feeling.
it's being forgotten by the one you cannot forget.

wokei. i'm off to sleep in a while. gawd. no sleep for 36 hoooours. :|

"Ano bang gagawin ko dito sa itlog na 'to?"
"PUTANG INA! Gawin mong manok!"
-Bata, Bata, Pa'no Ka Ginawa

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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truth, bitter truth.

Monday, February 25, 2008 @ 11:05 PM

so, why have i not been blogging lately?
well, school's been shitty,
and life's become even shittier.
...if there is such a word.
gawd, just thinking about it is just.plain.torture.

what else is new?

well, it looks like younger batches labeled 4 girls (very lovely ones at that. ahem. haha) as mean girls. it's downright hilarious, really. though these girls can never hide the fact that they can be total bitches at times. well, maybe most of the time for some of them. being pretty and opinionated can be such a deadly mix. :>

it's funny how people have preconceived ideas about other people. and sure, sometimes it can also be oh so true. ;)

[mean+girls+pic.jpg]

"I'm sorry that people are so jealous of me... but I can't help it that I'm so popular." -Mean Girls, 2004

but you can never call them plastics though. coz you can easily tell if they like you or not. and hush, you little sons of biatches. they know all your secrets. and WILL use them against you. oh, this is so fun. :>

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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drive.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008 @ 3:52 PM

dar, miss ka na namen.
get well soon, please?
this is just one whole nightmare we want to wake up from.

we lalalalalaloooove you.
so please stay strong. :)

MAGBI-BEACH PA TYO! :D

whatever tomorrow brings,
WE'LL BE THERE.
with open arms and open eyes.

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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i wanna hold your hand. :)

Friday, February 15, 2008 @ 12:24 PM

BEFORE:

one day you're going to want that girl.

that girl that knew she wasn't perfect,
but tried to be perfect for you.

the girl that believed the scraps of you she was given were worth it,
because something was better than nothing.

that girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you,
and loving you the only way she could.

the girl who sees your flaws,
but values them as much as your strengths.

that girl who still can't bring herself to hate you,
even though sometimes you really deserve it.

that girl who saw past your pretty eyes and
treasured parts of you that no one else has ever appreciated.

the girl who realizes she may never have your heart,
but will carry the image of you in hers forever.

the girl that sees this and
still loves you.

the girl that should have you, but doesn't.
even though she deserves it.

BUT FINALLY:

The girl can look in the mirror and
see that she's finally free from the puffy and hollow eyes.

The girl can wake up in the morning
and he won't be the first thought that comes into mind.

Finally, she can dream again.

Without him in it.

The girl can finally smile and mean it.

The girl has finally walked away and found herself again.

Realized that the scraps just DOESN'T cut it,
that she deserves BETTER.

oh such a relief the girl feels. :)

got this from Sha's multiply. thanks, Sha! aylovet. :)

so how did i spend my valentine's?

me and my single friends drank til dawn,
got wasted,
talked about basically anything under the sun,
some cried and spilled their guts out while some were happy [screw them haha],
and then went to TAGAYTAY to watch the sunrise...which never happened. haha

WALANG SUNRISE AMFFFFF.

so basically, we just went there to eat instant noodles in 7 eleven,
bond and talk,
listen to boys night out: confession sessions,
be emo,
and freeze to deeeeath.

next time, i'll DEFINITELY bring my digicam and jacket.
bad trip walang pictures.
my phone's batt died pa. grrr.
but still,

AYLALALALALOVET. <3333

so what if i didn't have a valentine?

i rock anyway. :D

single and NOT ready to mingle. ;)

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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unopened letter to the world.

Sunday, February 10, 2008 @ 3:22 PM

yes, another survey. coz im procrastinating. so sue me. and for those who are waiting for another "gossip entry" maghintay kayo! wag makulet. hahahah busy busy busy :P

Can you name 30 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 30 people.*NO CHEATING*

IN NO SPECIFIC ORDER WHATSOEVER:
1. Claude
2. Vonn
3. Iway
4. KP
5. Rech
6. Dar
7. Pau
8. Tim
9. AJ
10. Nel
11. Eddie
12. Aids
13. Luis
14. Chi
15. Jim
16. CJ
17. Kat
18. Peter
19. Dia
20. Francis
21. Anz
22. Paul
23. Milts
24. Jho
25. Marlon
26. Erin
27. Den
28. Camille
29. Yeng
30. Jaloy

THE QUESTIONS:

• How did you meet 10?
through tim, who was then introduced by pau. :P

• What would you do if you had never met 6?
nakow. eh di ndi masaya. wala akong aasarin. hahaha :P

• What would you do if 20 and 15 dated?
haha why not! sige lang. brokebaaaack :D

• If you could marry between 6 and 14 who will it be?
hahaha! ha. ha. ha. my gad, it's like asking me to choose who to marry among my brothers. haha (if i had one)

• Did you ever like 9?
AJ? no! haha :P

• Have you ever seen 4 cry?
of course not. XD

• Would 4 and 17 make a good couple?
anu baaaaa. puro homosexuality itoh. haha

• Would number 1 and 2 make a good couple?
pwedeeeee! haha

• Describe 8
shytype at first, pero masaya kasama. naaaaks! libreeee! XD

• Do you like 12?
si aids? oh my gad. kamusta naman tyo jan. :))

• Tell me something about 17
kat? saya kasama, fun. :)

• What's 7's favorite color?
eep! i honestly dont know! (what a friend, right?) pink? i hope it's pink. XD

• What would you do if 1 just confessed they liked you?
sana wag no? lesbiana ito! haha

• When was the last time you talked to number 15?
talk as in talk? uhm... last year?

• How do you think 19 feels about you?
she hates me. haha

• What language does 13 speak?
english, filipino, french, japanese. ataaaaa?

• Who is 2 going out with?
single ata sya. ATA.

• What grade is 16 in?
graduate! hahahaha! tanda mo na chooong! XD

• What is 5's favorite music?
RnB? dibaaaa? RnB dibaaaa??? hahaha

• Would you ever date 13?
ai kamusta naman yan. wag ganon. haha scary! XD

• Is 11 single?
single and currently mingling. haha

• What is 10's last name?
Jacinto. tama ba? xiet. haha

• Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 7?
kamusta nman tyo. im no friggin lesbian! hahahah

• Where does 18 live?
Paranaque.

• What do you think about 20?
sya si lonely boy and gossip boy. :D

• What is the best thing about 30?
nice. haha

• What would you like to tell 14 right now?
kamusta na si erin bare? hahahha :P hi chi! hahahaha

• How did you meet 9?
through pau/tim. haha funneh.

• What is the best and worst thing about 2?
the best thing about him is that i can tell him anything and everything that's under the sun. but the worst thing is, he's in UE na. :(

• Are you going to know 3 forever?
of course. :)

• How long have you known 26?
lately lang. hahahaha baket kayaaaa? :>

* Who is 24?
groupmate in emtech. :P

• Are you or did you ever date 2?
my gaaaaad. sige na lang. haha

• Do you have a crush on 27?
kay den? wtf? haha

• Would you kiss 25?
NO! hahahahaah

• Have you hugged/kissed 22?
beso-besooooo :)

• Would you like to hug/kiss 21?
no thanks! hahahaha hilarious

• Is 29 your gff?
and gff is???

• What do you hate about 23?
wala naman. he's nice. :P

• What's your relationship with 28?
super friend. :) i miss yooooou. :(

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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the handmaiden's tale.

Saturday, February 9, 2008 @ 11:40 PM

home alone. and lovin' it. :D

my family was off to my grandmama's [father side] bday lunch. meh. i had to do this stoooopid msnetec. plus, it's not like i go along with my relatives there. the youngest are 10 year-olds and the next are all 30++ year-olds. and don't ask me how old is the eldest. my gad. they're ancient. and how am i supposed to talk to them?

hey, how's work? or hey, have you seen the latest episode of Barney? [i don't know what kids watch these days haha] meh. i'd rather have a root canal.

and my titas would just ask the same old questions:

may boyfriend ka na? wala pa po.
bket? ayoko eh.
how's school? ok lang.
anong year ka na? 3rd na po, graduating on october.
talaga? graduating ka na? *nods* [kakasabi ko lang dba?]
what company would you go to? i don't know pa po.
we just went to blah blah blah. *leaves*

relatives. pfft. they say the same things every single year. dibaaaa? don't tell me ndi ganyan senyo if family reunions. if it isn't, i'd go hang myself. maybe.

and oh my gawd. i can't help myself. i just had to share this. this is me obsessing over gossip girl and channeling the boredom and insanity from msnetec.

don't you think penn badgley always look constipated?

but what the heck. works for me. XD

and i don't know if ~~it's just me~~ but,
i find ed westwick (chuck bass) hot. :|

but of course, not as hot as chace crawford (nate archibald). :D

got them from livejournal. meh. just searched it.
go google it if you wanna know the site. haha :P

and yey, im gonna watch one tree hill na. yes, episode 1 season 5. looooser much? XD boo, screw you. haha and then msnetec. great.

to my groupmates: you guys better treat me starbucks choco frap grande and oreo cheesecake! you hear meeeee?!

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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magaling, magaling, magaling.

what's this?!

some "Gossip Boy" just asked me to be his contact in multiply.
and the welcome message in his site was,

Gossip Boy here,

Your one and only source to the scandalous lives of CATCH's Elite

xo xo GOSSIP BOY

kinarir? haha
oh well, this should be interesting.
if not, whoever he is, i'm gonna slit his throat til he cries like some pathetic little girl.
well, not really.

my guesses on who this Gossip Boy are:
1. DA - how he said he wanted to make one site wherein he could post about everybody who's anybody. but then again, he's not bold enough.
2. SY - he being an addict in Gossip Girl himself, and he could pull this off.

so far, those two are my only guesses. for now. ;)

and now, i'm off to making MSNETEC, yet again.
gah, can't wait for season2 of Gossip Giiiiirl. <3
those stupid writers better stop that effin strike already!

i'm over it, we're all over it. geezas.

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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randomosity, boredom, and more randomosity :)

Friday, February 8, 2008 @ 1:56 PM

1. Do you still talk to the person you fell the hardest for?
- uhm.. no? haha "busy" :P

2. Have you ever seen your best friend naked?
- when i was in grade 6? guess if girl or boy. :))

number 3 is lost. find it for me :D

4. What is the best thing about your job?
- being a student? everything that's anything :P

5. Do you like more than one person right now?
- dude, i don't like ANYONE right now. :P

6. Name something that you would love to eat right now.
- i've satisfied my craving yesterday. kripy kreeeeme :)

7. Did you get any compliments today?
- uhm.. "ikaw pala yan." --> i'll take that as a compliment. haha

8. Who were the last two people to call you?
- my sister and claude? i think?

11. Are you happy?
- so-so.

12. Who was the last person you texted?
- rech. :P

where's number 13? he followed number 3?

14. Are you moody?
- ask my friends. :))

15. Last person you hung out with?
- claaaude. :P i've been with her for more than 24 hours na :))

16. What is the biggest lie you have ever told?
- i'm 5'4. whaaaat? so i wanna be taller. so sue me. :D

17. Have you ever smoked on campus?
- i don't smoke :)

18. Have you ever liked someone but never told them?
- uhm... next!

19. Have you ever gone camping?
- if you call our block's summer outing camping, then yes. XD

20. Are you single?
- single and not ready to mingle. :D

21. Have you ever gone skinnydipping?
- :))

22. Have you ever had a stalker?
- ewan koooo. if you consider ano as a stalker. haha. pero si kp meron :))

23. Who was the last person to make you mad?
- uhm... si number one haha

24. Thirsty?
- nah :)

25. Listening to music? What are you listening to?
- nope

26. What do you do before bed?
- freshen up. :)

27. Have you ever lied to your parents?
- have i NEVER lied my parents? :))

28. Have you ever worn your best friend's clothes?
- hahah yup :P

29. Have you ever thrown up from working out?
- nahhhh

30. Who do you miss?
- i dont miss anyone. (?)

31. Where are your siblings right now?
- work. work. and states. awwww :(

32. Last person you kissed other than family?
- ha. ha. ha. si claude? haha

33. Name five things you did today:
1)sleepover at clauds
2)breakfast
3)hail a cab
4) go to school
5)answering this shit. :D

34. Last person who you called?
- cant remember. poor ako eh haha

35. Future kids names?
- BLAIR. :)) girl or boy, blair pa rin. haha

36. What are you doing tomorrow?
- go to la salle, take the P&G test. :|

37. Are you on a laptop or a desktop?
- laptop

38. What is your mood?
- so-so mood

39. Is anyone jealous of you?
- maybe. :>

41. Where were you 2 hours ago?
- claude's place. :P

42. What were you doing last night?
- programming. eeewwwwww.

43. What does your hair look like right now?
- preeeeetty. :) [lie] bad hair day todaaaay :(

44. Has anyone ever used you?
- YES.

45. Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than as a friend?
- awkwaaaaard. hahahahahah

46. What have you eaten today?
- donuuuuut XD

48. Who was the last person you were in the car with?
- claude. :P [tae puro claude nlng laman neto ah. hahaha]

49. What are you looking forward to?
- LASAREEEET!

50. What do you think about being cheated on?
- it's a bitch.

51. Any of your friends getting married?
- nope. oh wait. pau? iway? what's the deal? hahahahah!

52. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
- i hopesie dopesie. :)

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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always love.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008 @ 8:26 PM

A random post of blabs. Coz I’m bored. And creativity && inspiration suddenly struck me and had to let it out. Yeah. Enjoy. :D

Legend: For girls. For boys. For everyone.

***

Some people chose to love.
Some people chose darkness.
Some people chose hatred.
Some people chose forgiveness.
And I?
I simply chose to be myself.

***

He looked at me and I looked back.
I smiled – knowing I can never have someone as wonderful as him.
He looked away.

I looked at her and she looked back.
She smiled at me and I quickly looked away.
It simply hurts knowing we can never have anything more than what we do now.

It’s funny how people underestimate the power of words.

***

Am I the luckiest one in the world?
I can’t believe you actually picked me.

***

Does it hurt?
Does it amaze you?
That when you look at her, she isn’t as a wreck as she was when you were there?
How happy she is now that her world doesn’t revolve you anymore?
How she doesn’t get up in the morning, thinking of what clothes to wear, just to impress you?
That she doesn’t look at you the way she did before?
So what if there is still bitterness in her.
So what if she can’t smile that special one that simply spells y-o-u.
At least now, when she looks into those eyes, she’d simply remember the times she wasted for you.

***

Someone once said,
‘Sometimes, it’s better to admire from afar.’
Maybe because it’s easier.
Maybe because it’s safe.
Or maybe simply because, this way, it wouldn’t hurt as much.

***

Pffft. Stop depressing yourself over someone. Who needs boys anyway? Stand up and get over it. Wipe away your tears. Be pretty. Go party. Be happy – dateless or not. Live your life for yourself, and not for anybody else. You don’t need to have someone to be contented. Enjoy while you still can.

***

You’d please her not caring how much you’d go through.
You’d give her the flowers she loves no matter how many meals you skip.
You’d write about her until the pages run out.
Hell, you’d even give her the world if she asks for it.
Too bad though – she likes the jerk.

***

It’s a boy-girl thing. :P
oh, yey, new skin. xD
and due to the public's demand (actually only pau's haha), i have a counter na. :) woah, ang dami agad ah. haha!

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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when it isn't like it should be.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008 @ 12:24 AM

save yourself.
because the only thing that matters
is that you get away from the pain
and the thought of losing your mind.
don't blame yourself.
it was everyone around you
who made you act this way.

there's only so much you can do
before you stop and realize it's over.
the problem we have is we hate giving up.
it's a sign of weakness and nobody likes to be weak;
but sometimes giving up
will show that you have the strength
to move on even when you know you don't.
it's letting go of something when you know it's near the end.
no matter how much you wish things could remain the same,
they won't.
and that's something you cannot change.

not knowing you're pretty is beauty,
being completely insane is better than boring,
and being in love with someone
without telling them is
just.plain.stupid.

see, when you're mad,
you don't miss people.
so if you stay mad,
it's like you never knew them at all.
that way you don't feel so badly about them leaving you.

wala lang,
valentine's na eh.
sabi nga ni dar,

mamatay na emo! XD

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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all these things that i've done.

Sunday, February 3, 2008 @ 11:15 PM

ouch.

it still hurts. and hurts. it stops a little, and then hurts some more.

that meaning the extraction and operation in my gums a while ago. and saturday. oh god. don't make me talk about saturday. seriously.

stoooopid tooth. it just had to be under my other tooth. haha talk about bad luck. xD

i went under this operation with the anesthesia not effecting because there was still an infection. the stooopid antibiotic didnt work.

the stooopid 100-bucks-a-piece antibiotic i've been drinking since last week didnt work.

i even cried right then and there. that was how painful it was.

stooopid. im stupid, everything else is stupid.

is this some sort of karma for me? if it is, i must be that cruel. aylovet. haha

hopefully i'd be able to talk well tomorrow and it wont swell. :| if not, you guys are gonna miss me. hahahaha :P

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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some you give away.

Saturday, February 2, 2008 @ 10:34 AM

it seems that there can never be too much gossip for us people. ;)

someone seem to have spotted N with F sitting alone along the crowded lobby of gokongwei. is there something going on we don't know of?

or maybe, they're simply doing something for a subject? hmm, it seems that N is finally over .J; and F, hmm, he's F. what now of .J? is this the reason why N did not know where .J was headed last wednesday?

and it seems that our own little *.G has grown up. imagine he did not want other people knowing what was going on between him and *.O? *.G being like that? this must be serious. it's about time for him to step things up. valentine's day is just around the corner, after all. and yes, he told me himself that he wants to get serious. but he still have this *toy* clinged to him. oohhh.

who are these people?

you have to find it out yourself. ;)

one missed call sucked.
and so did our game.
haha joke. :P
i luuuurve you guys. :D
you actually did well. except for MM. pffft.

hopefully MM would be out of the scene next game.
our team should've imported M instead.
then we'd all be happy. :>

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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