I'll be back so soon you won't even have to miss me. Take care of my heart - I've left it with you.

and i'm baaack! :D did you miss me? hahaha :P this is gonna be a long post, brace yourselves. :D

villa cornelia in cuenca batangas was absolutely lovely, except for the fact that there were some majorly creepy people. thank goodness they didn't stay overnight like we did. it was fun, fun, fun. :) pictures are already up in my multiply. :D contacts only, duh. ;) here are a few:

anyway, i just finished re-reading for the nth time new moon and eclipse last night (ugh, i absolutely LOATHE jacob. manipulating son of a bitch. haha), and well, it really got me thinking of what'll happen in breaking dawn. PAU, THIS IS FOR YOU TO STOP YOUR WORRYING. haha! actually, this is for everyone who are worrying that bella ends up with jacob. if you haven't read new moon and eclipse yet, there MIGHT be a tad bit of a spoiler. :D

i'd keep it short, and just give three major reasons why you have to stop worrying about bella and edward not staying together. :) and these are what Stephenie Meyer said so herself:

1. "And, just to ease the panic, please remember that I'm a big fan of happy endings" - Stephenie Meyer on the lexicon forums;
2. "Edward and Bella are so together, so that means Jacob's like, you know, still free." - Stephenie on "Eclipse" book tour in Chicago; and,
   
3. "Does this love [for Jacob] devaluate her love for Edward? Not for me. For me, it makes that perfect true love stronger. Bella has another option. She has a really good one. An option that's easier in many ways, that takes nothing—like her family, present or future—away from her. She would have love, and friendship, and family—an enviable human future. But she chooses Edward over all of this. This makes it real for me." - Stephenie's website, Eclipse FAQ.
   

and with breaking dawn being inspired by "A Midsummer Night's Dream", you still don't have to worry. there is another book she's getting inspiration from, but she won't say it yet. but i think in that book is the major part where she got the inspiration. and are we forgetting the fact that this AMND is a comedy? :) here's what i think stephenie got in AMND:

• Hermia and Lysander are lovers. so, there's bella and edward.
• Demitrius also loves Hermia, and her father has arranged for hermia to marry him. there's jacob. we all pretty much know how charlie prefers jacob. what a jerk. :))
  
• Helena loves Demitrius, and Demitrius eventually falls for Helena. i think jacob is going to imprint on some girl, and she'll like him, but he'll fight it because he loves bella. this unknown girl (Angela? hahaha!) will be helena. but jacob will eventually give in, because imprinting is their law of gravity, and ends up happily with this girl.
  

i actually don't think jacob would have a major part in breaking dawn, with the ending in eclipse and all. i think AMND will just reflect in BD in a way where jacob imprints on somebody else (i hope someone weird like jessica or lauren. mwahaha!) and have his happy ending (i would've wished it wasn't a happy one, but meh, the boy has some good points in him anyway and stephenie meyer loves this character. ugh. i hate him with every single cell in my body, well not really).

and, the title itself, Breaking Dawn, as i think, "breaking dawn" pretty much means in a sense that, bella would now be facing a new life - which, as i hope, her being a vampire and of course, being with edward. :D but whatever it is, bella and edward will have their happy ending. they HAVE to, dammit!!! besides, if bella ends up with jacob, it'll completely ruin the whole essence of the story. why else call it a "vampire love story" then? haha! this whole story is about the undying love of edward and bella. the fact that she's giving up so much only drives home the fact that they're meant to be together and all of that mushy stuff. even stephenie meyer said so herself that the whole love triangle thing is over because bella has already chosen and her choice was final. :)

so? no need to fuss, yes? ;)

gawd, i'm gushing again and blabbing nonstop. :)) sorry if i'm venting it all out here, since well, where else can i vent these out? hahaha! i told you i'm obsessed. i think too much and overanalyze things. :| and, hmm...what else is there to share? i want to go out next week, seriously. rech's out of town, my good god, your family goes out too much! haha! kp! nel! tine! let's go watch something next week, yes? :D let's make the most of our "summer". ugh, the rainy season has come. with a vengeance, mind you.

i actually woke up at 11 pm today. yes, PM. because i slept at 11 in the morning today, err, yesterday. good god, i always get confused in that kind of stuff. haha! so technically, even though it's 4 in the morning, i just started my day. good luck with my body clock.

and i just read this outrageously funny post. coughrechcough. WHAT IS IT WITH PEOPLE AND BITTERNESS??? well, i guess bitterness is going to be naturally there, for it might be the only thing left after the heartache. but really, i just don't get guys sometimes. when they find a girl they like, they court them. that's the law of nature. and, of course, any girl has the choice to give the dude a chance or not. you've been given your chance to prove yourself, and if she doesn't like you, you move on. you need not blaming her and getting personal. you guys say that we'd trade you for any random handsome dude that passes by even though you have the heart and the determination for it. i say it's BULLSHIT. it's downright hypocritical. why, wouldn't you do the same? wouldn't you choose a more good-looking girl, too? and, in the first place, wouldn't you court the girl because you found her attractive? besides, if you knew she was out of your league, why bother?!

so don't go around acting all bitter because you "weren't given the chance". it was your choice in the first place on who to ask that chance from. she doesn't like you, deal with it. she's out of your league, deal with it. be a MAN for crying out loud. don't think that it isn't hard on us girls too. besides, there's this fine line between friends and lovers. you did not have to cross that. that's suicide. if you wanted to be lovers in the first place, then why bother being friends? because you yourself know that it would hurt more. we did not ask you for it. you've placed it in yourself. technically, you were digging your own grave. and then you blame us?! hah! what utter bull.

this is all just luck. if we're all lucky, the person we love would love us back. but if not, then we move on. sure, there's the healing part. someone better would come, if not the best. but before that happens, please don't go around blaming people. because you don't have someone to blame but yourself.

phew! that was miiiighty long. i think this has got to be the longest entry i've ever written. :)) later, dearies! ;)

The feeling that coursed through me was unnerving, staggering. And I knew that I couldn't ignore you any longer.

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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