disclaimer: this post may contain foul languages. if you are in any way offended by such words, please refrain from reading. ;)

i know the words to describe people used in some of my "anger/gossip-posts" are harsh. i know that. i meant to do that.

also, could you please look at the sidebar? could you see who is in the picture? could you read the name of who this blog actually belongs to? oh, that's right - that's ME. this is MY blog, and i write here my insights, musings, gushes, gossips, and whatnot. i blog to fucking EXPRESS. this blog is MINE, and whatever i want to say, i say it.


waste of time.

look, Mr. Pity-me-pity-me, was i forcing you to read what i've been writing here? NO. did i even tell you to read my blog? NO. did i give you this url? NO. if you haven't been the nosy ass that you are, then you would not have been bitching on how harsh my words can be in describing you. well, NEWSFLASH, dearie. didn't anyone tell you? the truth fucking hurts. ;) oh, wait. you of all people should know that by now, right? and what, were you expecting me to think about replacing my harsh words with delicate ones in describing who you really are for me? to think about how you will feel when i'm too preoccupied being angry at you?! this is MY perspective on who you are, deal with it. and no, dear. i won't apologize for stating facts. i won't apologize for expressing how i feel. i won't apologize when i haven't done anything wrong, when YOU did. i won't apologize for saying things i actually meant. what i WILL apologize for, though, is for trusting you. it was wrong of me to have trusted you, right?

oh, and did i actually say who i was referring to? i DIDN'T, did i? then you're probably just one guilty fool. and sure, go ahead and continue telling people about this. you can manipulate them all you want for all i care. proceed on telling them that we're the ones who are actually wrong. i haven't given a damn on what other people thought about me before - they were mostly wrong anyway. what more now, when both you and i know what you're saying is wrong.
now, i want you to look in the mirror and look at the person who you have become. i hope you like what you see. looking at things now, i can't believe i actually said once that i wanted to be you if i was a guy. i think you've pretty much proven how i wasted my time rooting for you and believing in you. don't you see? we're not mad at you because of the wasted bucks or because of who you are. we're mad at you because of who you have become: a liar.


waste of space.

don't worry, Mr. I'm-The-Victim-Here, i won't be blogging about you anymore. coz you're one waste of space and i don't want you bitching about things more. after all, after reading this post, you're probably gonna be busy bitching about this to someone already. aww, let's all share a tear.

and i'm so fucking over this. i SO not need any more drama. ugh. this is the RS-incident all over again. oh and by the way, kudos to you, Mr. Blame-Them-Not-Me-Coz-I-Haven't-Done-Anything-Wrong! you're actually the most manipulative piece of ass i've ever met in my entire life. you've managed to get all of our sympathies before, and you're doing it again in getting the sympathies of others. ah, whatever. i'm off to sleep and i'm repressing all these bullshits. after all, i only need enough jackasses in my life, and you need not be in that list, thankyouverymuch. ;) i'm over this, everyone pretty much are, and tomorrow, this will simply be the news of yesterday. forever known, but kept unspoken - because nobody would give a damn anymore.

The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you're in control, you're not.

and i'm sorry, dearies. i am not in the mood to answer any questions right now, as you can see - i am VERY infuriated and frustrated. and that's even an understatement. tss. people can be such a...human, you know what i mean?

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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