we sometimes find solace in spending time with ourselves, trying hard not to lose ourselves in the chaotic poetry we call life. we are afraid not to lose the memories of before. we find happiness in reminiscing "the good ol' days". but do we really find happiness in it? or is it the bitterness of life that makes us want to escape back on the past which is by now deep in our memories?

we try to get it back. we scream to bring back the life before. we scream, and not even our own ears can hear our agony.

we try to loosen the grip that life is having on us. we feel the squeeze getting tighter.

how do you escape? you can't. we all can't.

the best we can do is work our asses off while we are young and able. the best we can do is actually be thankful we have something. we have to be thankful we have a so-called life.

let's be thankful we actually have good memories to look back on. let's be thankful we have regrets about the past - that means we have learned our lesson. let's be thankful we have friends we can reminisce with - they maybe the same friends we will make dreams for the future with. to give meaning to the words sacrifice and hard work.

let's all be thankful we have people who can help us forget about all the dramas and bullshits life has been throwing us. because we all need a little help sometimes - someone to help us hear the music in the world. to remind us that it won’t always be this way.

and the end of the day is what we all wish for. so we can all lie on our beds, and deny any possibility that there's this brand new day waiting for us. but once we have that end of day, we realize it would just mean we will have to do it all over again when we wake up. but it's okay, since we have the experience of yesterday that will remind us how we can go through tomorrow. we just have to suck it up and never live it down, and conceal everything with a smile.


life hates me lately, and i won't go ranting about it here. ugh. thank God OJT ends next week. 'til my next (and hopefully happier) post! oh, and did you notice my new playlist? it's from GG episode 1x18 (Much I Do About Nothing) and the movie 21. it gets stuck in your head just like my previous first track, Young Folks, which is from GG as well. :]] wow, i feel better already. haha.

Life sucks and then you die. Yeah, I should be so lucky.

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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