December.
January.
Time Passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.


it's been two months since my last update. haha. i don't know, i guess i just got too busy with thesis and the holidays. i just didn't feel like writing at all. fuck you, writer's block. speaking of writer's block, i've had one for a year now. i can't write any story. i can't continue those that i started. when i open MS Office, i'd just stare blankly at it, and the cursor will continue to blink, as if taunting me. fuck it.

also, omg i'm graduating on February 7! hahaha. the grad rehearsal's on February 4, i think. omg. i need to find a job right away. seriously i'm so sick of being a bum that i grab every opportunity to go out. haha. thank god there's job expo in DLSU next week. shit, i need to find a job, but i don't want to work yet. ugh i hate this. i need motivation God damn. :\ i feel so useless lately. ugh. jdkasdjaldjaslkdjas; i want to be a student again. like i want to relive my college days. i for sure as hell would want to undo what shitty things i've done. i want to undo and redo things. i don't think/feel that i've grown. at all.

ANYWAY. ENOUGH OF THAT SHIT. Happy Chinese New Year! since i figured i'm too late to greet you guys a HAPPY 2009 and all that jazz. thank God the Chinese are weird enough to have a different new year. haha. no offense. and oh, yeah! did you guys know that i got an iPhone 3G last December? yeah. be jealous. suck on that, you bitch. bahaha. >:] and i also have a Project 365 which can be found here. if you have no idea what a Project 365 is, look here.

aaand, can i just say how much of a bad-ass motherfucker Justin Gaston aka Miley Cyrus' boyfriend is? HOT DIGGITY DAMN. and he sings. HE MOTHER FUCKING SINGS. he actually sounds like Rob at times. but more like Jason Mraz-ish. holy shit. i downloaded two of his songs from his myspace. hahaha. he should make a label. he's gorgeous. he's hot. he sings. he's an underwear model. and he's got Miley Cyrus as a girlfriend. he is living the motherfucking life.

okay. i should calm down now. and yes, yes, new layout. anyway, that's it for today. i'll be bloghopping soon. i haven't done that in forever. one last thing - did you miss me? YOU BETTER.

We're one mistake from being together but let's not ask why it's not right. You won't be seventeen forever, and we can get away with this tonight.

You know you love me, so why won't you:
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